Hey. Vsauce. Michael here.

Since September last year, I've got memory problems, delusions & alltogether everything that comes with dpdr. Iiiiiii have anxiety. Baad anxiety. And ADHD. And depression as wellllll. I was suicidal now I'm not.

I have a question. I always thought that I am just perfectionist. But it started getting very bad. Worse. I became scared if germs, my fears have doubled and became worse. I keep wondering; why cant I control my breathing for example? I keep getting those thoughts of hurting animals/people. And I feel like I am just about to do it so I walk away. But I don't want to do itt. My mom is about to buy a puppy. We went to look at it. She gave it to me to hold it. That's when my depersonalization hit in again. Then I got these thoughts about those puppies. I genuinely wanted to brutally smash their small heads. I did not really want to its not like I'm a psychopath. I am good person. And I love dogs. I'm not even sociopath. Maybe antisocial. I stayed like on weed till the rest of the day. Is this


OCD?

Or something else?