Hi Dlscout,
Just wanted to say it is okay to be little ABDL. There is no shame in having to return to safety and reclaim a childhood you always wanted.
Deep Pressure Touch Stimulation is a very real thing. Weighted Blankets are used often to calm anxiety and PTSD. Those with Autism find the same sort of things comforting. Diapers can offer similar effects and can be used in public and hidden. I personally do this too. I struggle with shame but I have overcome some of it after digging deep and realizing that my need for safety is what drew me to these coping mechanisms. Trauma forces us to find ways to survive.
I hope that you have continued to explore your little side and allowed yourself to be yourself.
Thanks,
HD7970ghz