ty fuzzy

i got up the courage to tell t all that (well, most of it) and she actually responded;

"I am glad you can be in touch with and acknowledge how much fear you are feeling. I think all told that [your MD] will be out of the country for 3 weeks. I know where she is and in an emergency could reach her. It is important for you to know that. I know the locations she is traveling to and her travel plans. I think it would be a really good idea for you to track the usual things you track for her and bring them to your session with me. Then you will have them when she returns, which will help her view what is happening better. I know the basics of what she is doing, and having ongoing info, when possible helps. She and I do work together, and I am here, and you are not alone. Glad you could communicate. That usually helps ground fear. Take care, and breathe. L"

I am just floored - I had no idea my MD would give all her travel plans to T. I am assuming it doesn't actually have anything to do with me, but I am still astounded. It's like a big weight off my shoulders somehow - makes my MD real again.
It is odd - in the posts i read these kinds of things with all of you and your T's.... it is the same thing, but on my MD instead. I've known her only 9 months... and known T 6 months... I know T travels out of the country often as well... this is like a preview for me of coming attractions.
Kiya