Hi and welcome to PC, Cold Soul,

I'd have to say, no, it's not your fault you feel this way at all. Experts say it's more to do with brain chemistry and the workings of the mind, etc.

Have you spoken with your doctor or a mental health professional about what you're going through? They may be able to help you, one on one, to address your situation.

But all the same, it's very good to have you here Cold Soul. Hang in there please, keep reaching out, and again - welcome.