Anxious. And this morning I realized that it's not *just* the anxiety of starting a new job. Well, it's related, but... Have I mentioned it's a union job? I LOATHE unions and am royally PISSED OFF at being forced into one. This is making me very agitated. (I also feel tricked as no mention had been made of it and then a letter appeared from them -- after I'd already given notice at my old job.) I'm more than ready to launch into a diatribe on the subject at anyone in my path. This is not a good state for maintaining the stability I've been having. And I just can't calm down about it.

And I need to call them this morning.

To find out about insurance. Oh, this ought to be fun. I really want to rip someone a new one.

I have been SO CALM. SO BALANCED. And this has sent me positively ballistic.

This has me in fear for my stability. I feel like a cornered animal.