Thanks for the replies.

I do know the risks but then there are times when I am feeling at my lowest I don't care about the risks or what happens to me. These are the most dangerous times and because of certain things that have happened recently, that's the way i am feeling now. Because of my past and my failures I feel destined to be lonely all of my life and that's the scariest thing for me. I don't believe I have a future. I did see a therapist just over 2 years ago but didn't quite manage to work through everything and it kind of fell apart. I have been thinking of maybe going back to my therapist but don't know if it would be any better this time round.

My question about is it wrong to pay for sex was more of a moral one and not of what the law states. Personally I don't think it should be illegal, I am breaking the law but I don't care, what else am I meant to do? It's the only option I have. I still feel bad about it though.