I felt great today. Almost bordering on hypomanic but definitely not because I wasn’t overly energetic. Just euphoric. It was amazing. I didn’t let anyone bother me at work and I even talked a lot. Mostly I stay silent.

Unfortunately I received bad news after work that took the wind out of my sails. My father in law has taken a turn for the worse. The tumors have multiplied in his brain. They are hemorrhaging and he is having seizures. He is unconscious and only has days left to live. We will not be able to say goodbye to him as he can’t make it here from Tennessee. No one knew he had such little time left. It’s very sad and today I had to tell my son that his beloved grandfather is dying. He was so upset.

I’m doing ok, I know that I will be fine when he passes but I will probably lose it at his funeral like I did with my brother in law. Why is there so much death? My sister In law is a wreck. She just lost her brother unexpectedly in October and now she will lose her stepfather. It doesn’t seem fair.