I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, TheLonelyChemist Please don't be so hard on yourself. You're definitely not alone here. We all care about you here. We all love you here. You're a wonderful person. I'm sure you will be able to achieve your dreams. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this