How do you get over the loss of an attachment figure? Especially when an attachment is so rare and you need and crave interaction with other people. Why do people leave when you need them the most? How many years does it take to stop missing affection, to stop missing a kiss on the forehead? Is it possible to return to the numbness before you experienced what it was like to have physical affection in your life? Is it possible to go back to a time where you didn't want it and you could survive not interacting with other people unless you had to? How long until you can forgive yourself for being so awful and unacceptable that your person could never truly love you for yourself? How do you get over it when there is no one else...often no one to even talk to?