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Originally Posted by yellow_fleurs
I may have already posted something like this and if so, sorry! I am just thinking about how when my psychiatrist or therapist talks about my having bipolar, since I am not sure it fits completely, I feel like I am in denial. The thing is, I am okay with the diagnosis, it's just I am not sure, especially since people who have known me most of my life don't see it. When I tell those people, like my close friends, that I was diagnosed with bipolar, they tell me they do not think I have it and act really surprised. Even my close friend who supported me during my mixed episode on the SSRI, who also has bipolar, says he does not see it. So, talking to my friends makes me think I am just faking it or something. Basically I feel like I am both in denial and faking it at the same time kind of haha. The main reason I am concerned about it is that I do not have the best insight into my mental health, and I worry about getting the right treatment or picking up on my mood or other issues if I am not even certain what my diagnosis is. Oh well, I know this is not unusual to be unsure and go through a few diagnoses before figuring it out.
Tried to go swimming tonight but it was thundering. At least I made the effort and will go again soon. Having a friend to go with makes me more motivated. Went grocery shopping and made dinner so not a bad night.
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Hi there from Oz or Down Under,
I know what its like to go years with a provincial or inaccurate diagnosis. I went from 95-2006 with a depression diagnosis and managed to fly under the radar and hide my hypo-mania. Working in mental health as a nurse helped me hide it I guess. It was after my marriage breakdown and a second relationship breakdown that I was hospitalized, and once a consultant spent a decent amount of time with me, getting a complete history etc., that a diagnosis of bipolar 2 with anxiety and adjustment disorders was given. As such my medication was implemented with more effectiveness.
Reading your situation made me think that perhaps you have mixed aspects that haven't been fully explored yet and that senior professional advice is always advisable. Things change and we change as human beings, so we need to be aware of as much as possible and relate as much as possible to a treating doctor, in order to get the most appropriate and effective care possible.
Best wishes on your journey from a hot and sunny South Australia