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Old Feb 20, 2019, 09:11 PM
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Originally Posted by Wander View Post
Saw my T today. I have finally physically and mentally crashed from being so intensely busy the last 12 days since suddenly finding myself well and in my right mind. We both agree that I am still psychologically well just crashing Fibromyalgia wise. I have a busy two days then I can rest two days. I should recover by then.

It became apparent that I am very traumatised from my lengthy mixed episode with psychosis. I have had many , many mixed episodes in the past and a couple with psychosis but this one has done a number on me. We discussed practical things I can do right now to help beginning to heal, and that the need to go through it more deeply may come up but no pressure. This is worse than I realised.

Despite the exhaustion and trauma I feel decent. About to have a much needed afternoon nap as my brain is fried and I have a spare hour.
It has at times taken a considerable amount of time to heal from the trauma of a psychotic episode. Just remember that you are free to heal in your own time. I even grieved one of my episodes because being sick meant I lost what I thought was The Holy Spirit. Honestly, if I focus on it, I can still take my mind back to that place.
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Every finger in the room is pointing at me
I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring
I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth
Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now

Tori Amos ~ Crucify

Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder
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Thanks for this!
Nammu, Wander