(((((jbug))))) I'm so sorry that you're not getting the support that you need from your father. Is your mother perhaps better? Maybe you should just deal with her until you're in a more stable place.

As parents, we tend to lash out when we are hurt, angry or scared, it's not right, but we're human too. Perhaps deep down he's feeling somehow responsible for your or just plain miserable because he can't fix it for you.

Try to exercise a little self care. You're dad sounds like he's old school and probably doesn't fully understand what's going on, if you can keep your conversations with him to things like the weather and have mom help you with the big things. Remember that you'll never be able to change his attitude, only your own and your reaction to him.

Big cyber (((((hug))))).