Please don't feel stupid, though I understand. Anyone can fall for what feels like love.....

I've been victim to abuse several times. In the beginning they seem loving, and even portray sometimes loving behavior coupled with abusive behavior. It can happen to anyone.

The key is to know that you deserve better than what you've been dealing with. You don't deserve to be made to feel like this is all YOUR problem because you are sensitive and emotional. He has been cruel and mean and puts you down. That is not loving behavior. He is deflecting responsibility all onto you, which is exactly what abusers do.