When you replace them. Finding someone that totally relates and you can be yourself is difficult. Took me 38 years to find someone I've connected with more than anyone I've ever met. In just 1 year She's now my best friend and for the last few months I absolutely love her. She's bipolar 1 like myself. When we go out together it's amazing, I even enjoy doing the small things with her.

Don't think your broken or unworthy. Someone that hunts and fishes won't click with a vegan. They aren't broken or unworthy even though they're hobby is killing animals. :/

I've been married and divorced several times looking for that special someone. In the end it doesnt work. I've found that I'll try to be more like them and less myself. But pretending all the time is exhausting and impossible to keep up. It ends up me low key hating them. I'll find anything to fight with them about. They usually call us crazy, moody, asshole, etc keep in mind we are nothing of those things. Don't try to be something you're not or it will cause you to be very depressed. It's impossible to be something you're not. You might be able to fake it for a long time but it comes at a cost. It wears you down.

I've been bipolar all my life going back to my first memories. I've learned to deal with who I am and grown over the years. I still have my moments but I'm more aware of myself and my moods.

Hang in there.