I'm so sorry, Dnester I completely agree with what Betty_Banana has already wisely said better than I ever could.. It will take time. Just try to be patient. I know things seem pretty bad now, but trust me when I say that they can get better. I hope things will get better soon for you. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this