the "girlfriend" came over last night and she laid on my lap and we talked about the things she wanted in life and what she needed. i was not included on either list. we laughed, we cried and after telling me how our relationship bothered her and a bunch of other things that was wrong with me, we had sex. i don't know if she just needed it or it was my last goodbye or parting gift to me but we had sex. it was good and we had fun but after it was over it was getting late and she needed to leave. i walked her out and we kissed some more and hugged and at the end she looked at me and asked "well, is this it" and i said "of what". she said "of us"? i was stunned because we just spent all night kissing, talking, laughing and having sex and a good time and now i learn it is all over between us. she drove off free of me and i walked inside feeling confused and very hurt. we had unprotected sex and if at all, there would only be a slight chance of anything happening (i know what your thinking so no need to tell me) I am trying to get through the days without her but all i'm feeling is that all i want is the girl i use to know and love and she loves me but deep down i know she doesnt love me now and if i can get over her maybe its for the best. the thing that also got to me was there was a man who weighed over 1000 lbs but lost 400pluslbs and now weighs 800. he was forklifted from his house, put on a truck and they were driving him to a picnic with his GIRLFRIEND. what? ok, a 800 lb man can get a girlfriend but i cant , what is wrong with me?