When was my Last check in here?
I am doing a bit better, but didn't go to work today and almost forgot I told them I'd log in late...
I have another thread in another area about a recent message, I think I mentionedit here- it is my sister... it appears my mom lied again to me.. not a shocker...
Idk where this will lead but I know I've thought this one was more stable.. this is one that had also dx of bipolar, I am not sure of she went on meds. We had a discussion years ago on that, we were brought up that we don't need no meds or therapy, and pretty dysfunctional.. but hey it's ok! we all went our own paths. I am still learning

I talked with general doc today due to tummy issues that have recurred and BADLY recently.. doc is nice, she understands that I want to get this taken care of before any meds are added, and I shared with her of me really realizing that I may need them and why they keep getting suggested... she like my first t long ago explained how cigs have a mood stabilizer property and that she's glad I'm quitting but agrees that I may need just some help and a plan.

Doc mentioned I should try my search the other way around ... every time I look for a therapist, and then reluctantly see a pdoc... doc wants me to find a pdoc that may have connections to therapist.
I am sorry If I am moving slow again.. i've gone only this far this time around, but at least I am still moving forward.

Work is still crazy people everywhere... I have been watching some PTSD videos as I know that has some merit into it all.

General doc wants me to check in in a month just for tummy and mood issues and how I am doing, since she sees on my record the hospital. She brought it up and I am ok with it.

I am going to swallow a camera... hope it's not too bad.. the people are to call me for an appointment.. hope it helps to find the problem