I've been very depressed. I finally broke down last night and cried. I have been so overwhelmed with the voices and anxiety it started really getting me down. I felt like the only way to stop it, was to stop me, take my own life. I didn't, because I don't want to die, I just want that stuff to stop. I love life, I'm normally a very happy person but I haven't been feeling right since maybe the autumn. Things don't make me happy anymore, things I normally love, I don't even have an appetite which is highly unusual for me. That's only happened one other time in my life.

Anyway, sorry for rambling on, I'm starting to feel hopeful though. I'm going to have a peer support person soon to talk to when things are difficult. I'm reconnecting with my faith, it disappeared for awhile which was very upsetting. I plan on making it through day by day, I will do things that help me feel better, and make myself eat, shower etc.