I don't imagine ever having an opportunity to be in a relationship again. The opportunity is so rare as it is (it really only happened that once) and as I get older, I imagine work is going to take up all of my time. Oh well, at least now I can imagine what it could be like. Daydreaming relationships/friendships have filled some of the emptiness throughout my life.

And I'm not acceptable because I'm bisexual and not cisgender in a cisgender/straight world. I've lost everyone I've gotten close to at least partly because I'm queer. But it's not like I've proved it yet, so it's not like I really fit in the LGBT world either.