whoa, whoa, whoa....let's take a step back.

I'm sorry you are struggling.

Hopefully it helped to get some of that out in writing here, please continue to do that.

Could you step back and not ditch meds right away, and go thru them with someone?

I will not and can not tell you to take/not take, but please, please, step back a bit and ensure you do not cause further problems by coming off abruptly, even moreso if you are talking about more than one medication (and pretty sure you are).

If you do make that firm decision to come off, I've found that some amount of tapering is imperative, even if it's brief.

It is common to want off meds, and in some cases it's appropriate, but please consider not ditching all of them at once or without a plan for day 1, day 2, day 3, day 7, 10, etc.

What are you currently taking if you don't mind discussing?