Or something like that? Seriously? What am I supposed to do, wake up one day and be perfectly *FINE* that my T is leaving, and a bunch of my friends are graduating and my world is falling to pieces?

... to heck with her being "nice". I dont WANT NICE. I want a REASON to be mad at her. I want a REASON to forget the good stuff, and just push her away because it's going to hurt too much when she leaves.

Everyone ALWAYS leaves.

Yeah, todays session was a load of fun. She refuses to accept that I need someone to tell me that I shouldnt do something stupid... is it weird that I just need some damn reinforcement of the good stuff? SERIOUSLY, I have gone through a %#@&#! BAD TIME lately and I WANT to scream.

... okay, I definetely dont deal well with things. Verge of anxiety attack (or fullblown anxiety) for two days now, and I am SICK of it. I hate crying. Im breaking.

And who cares??? Seriously?

... I'm too messed up. She's gone anways. My heart is broken again. Only like 4? more meetings then she's GONE.

... Christina wants to crawl into a hole and die right now.