((((((((((((((((((( zh )))))))))))))))))))))))

thank you, but talking to hubby won't help much as i just explained to 1day in post above and it's not all his fault. i do realize that. he's very good to me for the most part.

i think i'm really freaking (lots of me is) over the fact that hubby's leaving on thursday...won't even have his help.

as far as little man...oh my...he's the bright spot and enjoyment in my life right now. it's when he's gone to bed (like now) that i sit and feel all of these things. little man is not the issue at all. it's everyone else. his needs are so easy to accomodate...and such a blessing to be able to.

it's the mother, the brother, the niece, the friend, the daughters,the house, the bills... and hubby needing too much as he's getting ready to leave. i think i'm going to have to shut myself off for a few days from everyone and everything but little man, daughters, and hubby. i can't tho, until we get this closing finished on house and a few back bills paid. that's another place where stress is getting to me. we've gotten behind since i quit working to care for little man

so, pray the closing goes thru and i get the bills taken care of so i can shut everyone and everything out and regain some of the resourses i've lost these last few months.

thank you again,

kd