hi christina i understand a bit of what your talking about, although not as extreme but do understand. although you are there alone, you know that some of us are sailing the same boat as you, so what would you say to us when we're in that situation? or what kind of comfort would you offer? try to remember that we feel for you and i hope that things can smooth out for you. big hugs for you in times of distress.also hope the med situation helps at least untill you can get some strength