i know you feel. i'm kind of in the same pot as you. i have determined for myself is that i am not able to comunicate what i am feeling,no one around me understands, or that i'm just so sick of being in my own skin because i can''t focus long enough to make sense of what's going on with me.sometimes i just stop and try taking deep breaths and try to let it go or shake it off. still learning. and if i find that i'm hurting those around me i step back and take another route. although redirecting can sometimes be more frustrating. sometimes at times like that i just want to shut myself out or away but then i fall back to depression, sorry i suppose i don't have a definate answer for ya but hope you feel better soon