Last night I took my 25mg of Seroquel at 8 pm as I was exhausted I thought I would fall asleep quickly. Again I ended up getting up at 11pm and eating out my fridge. This has got to stop. Tonight I will take 50mg (pdoc has recommended up to 75mg) and see if I can get to sleep before the muchies set in. I have already gained 1kg (about 2.2 pounds). I am trying to lose weight.

To combat losing weight I went for a short swim after the 8 minute very hilly walk to the beach, then of course back home. Trying to find the balance between not overdoing it and losing weight. I also do yoga for 15 minutes most days. Still no weight loss, and I eat really well, even when binging, and I rarely drink alcohol.

My mood has been much lower, and I have been very irritable, wanting to punch things. My thoughts have turned negative too. I am concerned as I was going so well after my hospitalisation. I am thinking it is the down after the mixed mania. Hopefully it will pass soon. I simply cannot bear another episode. I start university in two days. It just cannot happen.