Thanks Daonnachd!
Both jobs will keep me mobile and active which I think is a good thing for me. Feeling quite overwhelmed and excited and scared this evening. I actually just took half a .5mg clonazepam tab a minute ago (too scared to take the whole thing but that's typical of me). I've had them since Nov and never taken them. My pdoc strongly suggested I try one even if its a tiny crumb of one and to use them prn. Kinda feeling a bit weird right now though that could be all in my head anticipating it knocking me out.
Have a good evening