I have a habit of researching the s*** out of my illness. This can be a bit obsessive but I do learn a huge amount from the peer reviewed medical studies I read. In fact I can see that my pdoc is following the evidence by the book, while being open to take the occasional shot in the dark. He also seeks second opinions when he’s stumped. This really comforts me as it shows he’s not arrogant. He’s also not arrogant enough to be bothered by my knowledge. In fact he encourages it. As long as I don’t get obsessed of course.

My T is similar. Evidence based but also intuitive. Generally I know where he’s coming from but occasionally he surprises me. He encourages me to know all I can about my illness as long as it’s from reputable sources.

Then comes my personal experience with my illness. My pdoc and T both know they can come up with labels but in the end I am the expert on what I go through. They both seem willing to learn from me. I’m so glad they take the time to try to see things from my side. My pdoc is often rushed but we have had a chance to chat about this. Right now I’m about to talk at length with my T in depth about my recent mixed episode with psychosis. This will really help me process the trauma.

Sorry I rambled. I’m hypomanic.