So it's been 2 years since my last visit which was my last. Nothing has changed in 15 years when I use to visit a T regularly. I told my pdoc it's pointless and I fine living without therapy. I'm done with it since it's not something I need or want in my life. It's not for everyone and I'm that person.

I'm BP1 and have some massive episodes a few times a year. That's who I am and unless I'm prescribed a ton of pills nothing is going to change. I've learned from my mistakes and try to do better if possible. I've ended a potential episode a few weeks ago. Only a regular manic episode which I'm very use too. I'd say I'm at mid level manic 24/7 and go into a slight depression states afterward here and there. It's a back and forth type of lifestyle but I'm use to it and accepted that's who I am. My cycle consists of manic 4 to 5 days and 2 or 3 days of depression. When I have a massive episode then I can go super manic for a week to months followed by depression. Those are hard times but within this last year I've greatly limited the amount and how long.

How I deal with it is different for everyone. But I see my life as I'm Dr. JEKYLL and Mr. HYDE. From there I do what I can to limit the time Mr. HYDE "deeply manic" comes out. Learning about yourself and not letting you mind get to out of control are key factors to control and limit my very bad times.

I'm sure a lot will disagree with me and that's fine. If it works for you that's great I'm happy for you. Everyone has their own "therapy" methods that they use. I know I do and it's a growing treatment involving just myself, me, and I. Who knows you better than yourself? No one.