I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Fuzzybear You're not a toxic person. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You're a wonderful person who didn't receive the love she needed and deserved. I'm so sorry. You didn't deserve to be treated this way. I hope you'll be able to find happiness and peace. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this