I take a tricyclic (nortryptiline) and an atypical one (tianeptine).

Still, I don't feel really better.

I cannot sleep really well so I was given Zolpidem (ambien), but I don't want to take benzo-like meds for too long.

I was thinking on asking my pdoc to give me agomelatine instead (another antidepressant, agonist of melatonin receptors), it may help my sleep.

Crazy, inside and aside

"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance."
I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-