Yes. That really is one of my biggest things right now- one of my biggest dilemmas. Both sides feel like a loss in some ways so its hard for me to really definitively stay on one side.

Im leaning more towards medication though. As horrible as it is for me, some of the things that happen to me are really scary- and i really feel that it would be... it would be a fast and hard fall for me if I stopped my medication, and at some point I might not be able to come back from it

I wish you luck with your choice. It really can be difficult, I hope you have people to talk to about it, I hope you have someone who listens.