It's about the heart. Idk if it's all in my head but it feels like God is trying to scare me into appreciating life by making my heart feel uncomfortable in my chest. That's why I'm afraid to exercise. I feel like it has beaten enough and needs a break because 22 years is such a long time..

I'm hyper aware of my heart again after a period of barely ever checking my pulse when I was on Vyvanse. So maybe I can't use Concerta anymore and have to switch back. But I'm still taking it because without it I can't get out of bed for days.