I haven't had sex in four years. My wife and I are 8-years apart in ages. She's 48 and I'm 40. I've been described as a sex addict. Feeling mighty low this evening. Very depressed. Friendless and hopeless. Can't sleep. Really despise the kind of feelings that I am bearing at the moment. I'm in pain. Emotional pain. I find sexual desires, sexual cravings, arousals excruciatingly embarrassing. I simply hate these feelings! Perhaps I am. I dunno anymore. I can't seem to comprehend my feelings. I am not lying. I've never cheated on my wife nor do I want to. I love my wife. I just hate feeling sexual. I have increased guilt, remorseful and suicidal. Even tried to remove my own "male sex organ". I am ugly as sin, with no sexual experience what so ever. I am not a virgin. Just never really any good at sex. Nor did I experienced sex that often. Long story... I suppose one might say that I have CSD *compulsive sexuality disorder. Just wanted to see if anyone else has had this problem or if I was the only one?