In one of your previous threads, Blue, you wrote
"I have no idea why I'm not diagnosed with schizoaffective since my psychosis is persistent and since I share many symptoms with schizoaffective, but it is what it is. "

Maybe this is where the confusion comes from. If meds aren't for you then they aren't for you and my view is that is best just to accept whatever you decide to do. But then of course you will live with whatever consequences. Long term consequences can be hard to see.