I'm so sorry, annoyedgrunt84 I agree with Reagan85. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Everyone can make mistakes. You're only human, after all. That doesn't mean you're bad or worthless. You just need to work on yourself a bit. That's normal. I'm sure you'll be able to accomplish great things. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good just like everyone else. Stay strong, annoyedgrun84. Stay safe and take care of yourself. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things wil get better soon for you. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this