Hello KD1980,

I think this a really important post that you've created. I am sorry that you are struggling with guilt and shame. Those are really heavy difficult emotions to deal with. I am wondering if you have mentioned this particular struggle with a trusted therapist? I imagine that he or she would have particular strategies to suggest.

As for me, I would recommend meditating on those feelings. Such as YouTube: 'guided meditation for guilt' or 'guided meditation for peace of mind' or 'guided meditation for embarrassment.' It's almost like you need to be able to step outside of the feelings for a while so they lessen over time.

What do you think?

I know you are not "mean" or a "jerk." You've been very kind to me. I wish you peace and wellness