I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, sinking Please don't be so hard on yourself. You're NOT a failure, please remember that. I completely agree with what Little Cat has already wisely said better than I ever could. It seems like you really love your parents. Even though you don't live with them, can you still visit them as often as you want? How far away from you are they? If you're feeling so lonely, perhaps you could try to arrange some visits with them. Maybe two or three times a week. I'm sure they'll be happy to have you home! Do you feel like making some friend? I know it must be very hard for you, but perhaps you could give it a try. Perhaps you could try some websites that allow you to meet some people near you? I'm so sorry. It must be very hard for you. Please don't give up. Remember that you're not a failure. You're a wonderful person, sinking. You're just struggling, that's all. I hope things are going ok with your therapist. I hope he/she will be able to help you. I'm here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Please don't give up. Remember that you're stronger than you think. You've got this. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Stay strong, sinking. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this