I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, spikes I'm so sorry. Please don't give up. This must be very hard for you. I'm so sorry. I completely agree with what eye2792 has already wisely said better than I ever could. You've been given some great advice in this thread. I'd suggest to follow it if you can. I'd suggest to talk to your Pdoc about this and see how it goes from there. Hopefully he/she will be able to help you. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. I'd suggest to keep your meds if you can. They may help you feel more stable. That's just my opinion, though. The final decision is up to you. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. Keep fighting. You're a warrior! You'll get through this. It won't be easy. It will take time. But it can be done! Please don't give up. You're a wonderful person. Stay strong, spikes. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this