No, please don't think that (((cryingontheinside))). Going by what you've mentioned in other posts, you struggle, like a lot of us here. It just means you're not too well & finding it difficult to cope because of mental health issues, in my opinion. That's why you're seeking solace in other areas through your phone - which can be quite addictive.

Keep reaching out here please cryingontheinside, and just tell your father the truth. It's the best way. Keep trying and trying and don't give up.