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Old Feb 26, 2019, 12:33 AM
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Originally Posted by BeyondtheRainbow View Post
I have certain books that only read when I'm sick. It's a coping mechanism though; I have read them so many times that I don't need to be able to concentrate to follow them. I just look at the pages and can sort of follow the stories that way.

I avoid music during episodes, especially since psychosis often has a music component for me where songs transform into dirty lyrics that play in my head 24/7. I will literally scream for them to go away but they don't.


Omg!! Yes yes on the music thing. Its not just ooh cant get this song outta my head so annoying...its that it becomes dark and scary, terrorizing me sometimes, like haunting me.. A few weeks before i was fired working the grave yard shift i was at work and U2 "bloody sunday" took over my brain and it would not stop. With it came feelings of terror, fear and mixed in with strange nostalgia of teenage hood while also feeling like i was trapped in a bad part of A scary movie while also feeling i was in danger. Idk its so hard to explain. But its awful. Burrrrr i cant even think of the song without shivering. I hate my brain sometimes
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I used to rule the world
Seas would rise when I gave the word
Now in the morning, I sleep alone
Sweep the streets I used to own
I used to roll the dice
Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes
Listen as the crowd would sing
Now the old king is dead! Long live the king!
One minute I held the key
Next the walls were closed on me
And I discovered that my castles stand
Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand
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