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Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist
I am not going to socialize. The damage has been already done. Nobody will tell me this because they know committing suicide or baiting suicide is illegal. So yes, I am not going to a life that I always wanted.
In fact, it's a fact I lack skills required to become a scientist... and none of this is even my fault... so yes, my life's a waste. All I ever wanted to do, was just to heal people. But let's go according to a saying, how are you going to save others when you couldn't save yourself?
So yes, screw becoming a scientist, having friends, partners and family. Screw all of this. I have almost no hope.
But hey, at least I tried.,, and it's sufficient.
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On my drive home I had so much on my mind I dont remember most of the 30 min drive.
I hate my wife, she's the laziest person I've ever been with. I like to be spontaneous and do all kinds of activities but she just wants to do is watch TV. I started hanging out with a friend all the time. We went hiking, shopping, going out for lunch, taking walks, and falling in love. Yup I've fallen In love with a friend and she doesnt feel the same towards me. How awful.
I've got my goal set that I'm going to be the next CEO of my company. Since I'm always lonely I might as well do something with all my time.
I have no idea what I was going with all this but hang in there. I've signed up for tomorrows bipolar group meeting so I've got something new and interesting to try. Have you tried a group meeting before?
Feel feel to message me.