Naturalemotion,

Are you being treated (seeing a therapist or psychiatrist) for your anxiety?

When I am having panic attacks, my medication helps though sometimes I get paranoid about being dependent on my medications and what they will do to me in the long run. However, my blood pressure gets lower (114/77 and I am 55 so that is great numbers) when I am taking enough medications for my anxiety. Without my medications, it is around 139/85 (this is not good for your health)--so not taking my medications is probably more dangerous for my health in the long run (Heart disease is the #1 cause of death and stroke is #5).

They say exposure therapy (forcing yourself to do something you are afraid to do) is also important/helpful. So is yoga and meditation. Sometimes I do yoga at home in front of my smart TV. I like Yoga with Adriene on Youtube.
Long walks are also calming for me (though you can get panic attacks during walks but I can tell they are mostly very good for my anxiety)--getting out of the house somehow so you don't feel trapped has always helped me. I don't know if you are the same but just making suggestions for you to try. Don't give up. Keep trying to heal yourself!!!

It is good that you are talking about it here. I think that could help motivate you to try to help yourself, get help and know you are not alone. Take it one day at a time?