I would rather have been
Called a junk head
Than sick, forever sick.
Some drunk at the pub
Said some conspiracy theory.
The health care professionals
Were optimistic about my recovery.
I had responded so well
To the zyprexa, I was allowed
Home in a short 28 days.
It pains me to say
I need my tablet
For the foreseeable future.
But my ol'dear and ol'man
Put it in the worst possible terms.
Sick in the head is reserved,
For criminals and molesters.
Something wrong with them,
Also sounds like a criminal illness.
A mood disorder is not a sickness.
Throwing the word sick around,
I just wanted to jump out the window.
Please use a better word or phrase.
A more accurate turn of phrase
Such as you need to rest. Day by day.
But my parents were never subtle.
The doctor did treat me like an individual.
For some reason I only asked them
Am I not allowed to get angry on
My own accord now....
I stopped before saying
My reactions were a sickness now.
Because it was the people around me
Who were ignorant,
Obviously the doctor was not.
I could have asked them
Much more questions.
But I was young and just
Wanted to move on with life.
The worst had passed and
I was stable on my tablet.
You have more colour
In your cheeks also,
That is a good sign. They said.
They never told me I might
Need the tablet for the foreseeable future.
Well, they did say stick to the
Orders on the guidelines on the tablet
Box and the instructions.
I was intelligent so they felt
No need to hammer home:
Take the tablet, take the tablet
And do not stop without consultation.
They seem hesitant to give orders.
They were not a drill sergeant.
Nobody should go against,
Their doctors advice.
But the tablets don't come
Without some side effects.
Aside from the weight gain,
There is drowsiness at the start.
But I would say to anyone
To persevere as it's worth it,
If they are in my boat only though.
One I would refuse point blank.
Ahem the dreaded, last resort. Clozopine.
A second opinion can be requested
If their is some doubt and another
Doctor can give their opinion.
I have never needed to but
I understand they are human.
On the label it says in block capitals -
Do not stop without consulting a doctor.