I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, naturalemotion5 I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. You're NOT a loser and you're NOT pathetic. You've been given some great advice in this thread. I'd suggest to try to follow it if you can. Please don't be so hard on yourself. It's not your fault if you're struggling with anxiety and phobias. You're definitely not alone in this as this thread has already shown. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your anxiety and phobias. I'd suggest to see a Pdoc as well if you can. I'd suggest to try to take some medications if you can. They could be really helpful to you. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. It must be very hard for you. Please remember thast you're not a loser. You'ìre a wonderful person. You're just struggling right now. That's all. That doesn't make you an horrible person and it doesn't make you worthless. Remember that you're not alone here. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. Remember that things won't stay like this forever. They can and will get better. You just need a little help. That's all. It won't be easy. It will take time. But it can be done. Just take all the time you need. Take it one step at the time. Take baby steps.Remember that you're stronger than you think. You've got this. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. Stay strong, naturalemotion5. Stay safe and take care of yourself. I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. Is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this