I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, elevatedsoul I completely agree with what blackrainbow has already wisely said better than I ever could. You're here because you matter. You're a wonderful person. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. Please don't give up. Things won't stay like this forever. They can and will get better. Try to hang on. You can do this! You're strong, I know that. I believe in you. I'm here for you if you need to talk about it. We all care about you here. We all love you here. Feel free to vent here as much as you want. We'll listen to what you have to say and won't judge you. Stay strong, elevatedsoul. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Keep fighting! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! I'm so sorry, I know it's hard. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. is there anything we can do to help you? Please let us know. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this