You are still young and you have beautiful kids that need you. If you only started drinking on Friday you can stop today. Please.

Remember how you felt without alcohol and compare to what you are writing in the second sentence from the start of this thread. I side with your T an inpatient program is best if that's what it takes. Much better still if you could quit on your own, because you want it and your family deserves it.

I wish you all the best, please get better.