This is sort of difficult to sum up but I'll just cut to it...I have a lot of phobias. So many phobias. and it depresses me to the point where I feel no hope at all

Irrational fears of all kinds of things I can't even name them all... heights (and when I mean heights I mean like three stories is enough to stop me from going somewhere I need to be), social anxiety (I've always had friends but I avoid them a lot because frequent communication increases my anxiety and I never speak to new people because im so ******* anxious), hypochondria since I was maybe six, food anxiety (paranoid about bacteria, whether i will choke on it, to where I'm constantly throwing food away and have lost drastic amounts of weight before) and the worst is my driving phobia that developed when I first started driving, intensified after a bad accident that left me without a car. I haven't driven since and I flinch and have panic attacks all the time in the drivers seat.

I feel like a complete freak, and a loser, because I have never seemed to function like everyone else my age and I have never met anyone else that has dealt with any of this. It's pathetic and lame and frustrating for everyone around me to be this paranoid about everything, it sets me back so much, especially the driving. I'm stuck living with my folks in a place with poor transportation, where a car is essential, and I literally feel so trapped because even if I had a car being on the road as a passenger is enough to cause panic. I have to always hide this ******** from everyone because its such a huge source of shame and people always look down on me for it or take it personally.

I really just want to give up.