The only reason I even care is because of my family. I love my kids and my H so much. And I have been doing better with the kids since my last IP and I don't want to ruin how happy they are now. Of course H is worried, we both know what happens if this keeps going. Maybe I will ask him to talk to T for me and get me referred to both because I would have to wait and see about the dbt anyway. Do you think that would be a cop out? I don't know if I can talk to anyone now, I feel like shutting down completely but if I dont get help soon like possibly within days things will be so bad I wont accept any help anymore at all. Maybe having someone new right now would help.

This is what T said about the psychosocial program: more regular check-ins, helping with adherence to treatment plan/goals, medication compliance, and monitoring to provide support to prevent and manage crises.

And this is info on the dbt, I guess it has a long wait list though. CODI is about mental health/ substance use disorders:
Mindfulness practice, Life Skills groups, cooking, exercise, recreational outings, multisensory environment, vocational incentive program, co-occurring disorder initiative (CODI), Mindfulness meditation group, DBT peer group, contributing group, and Creative Expressions group. Patients also receive individual therapy and group skills training. Our team includes psychiatry, psychology, social work, occupational therapy, nurses, and nursing assistants.

I honestly just feel like I shouldn't need all of this. In two years I have gone from completely self sufficient to some useless person with substance abuse issues and bipolar who needs constant help and hospital stays just to stop herself from constantly attempting suicide. Anytime I ask for help I just feel worse, they slap another label on me, refer me to something else because they can't help me. I am angry that any of this happened. It's hard to accept that I have to work on anything, much easier to just drink it away but I really can't stop properly. One or two drinks is not possible for me and after only a few days I felt so worried about not having any alcohol in the house.

I was on naltrexone for the cravings but I don't know that it helped. As soon as my mood changed the cravings were back. I dont take my meds properly(managed to for only a couple weeks after getting home) though and I drink and I can't tell if my moods are the cause or effect anymore. The only time I had any physical problems quitting was when I drank for a month straight. Normally now it's only a week or so before things get so bad I'm IP.