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Originally Posted by TheLonelyChemist
I am not going to socialize. The damage has been already done. Nobody will tell me this because they know committing suicide or baiting suicide is illegal. So yes, I am not going to a life that I always wanted.
In fact, it's a fact I lack skills required to become a scientist... and none of this is even my fault... so yes, my life's a waste. All I ever wanted to do, was just to heal people. But let's go according to a saying, how are you going to save others when you couldn't save yourself?
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Some skills can be learnt later in life, it is not all lost.
(Due to childhood neglect, I was misdiagnosed with autism as a child -I didn't learn what I had to when I had to-. Nevertheless, last summer I did some voluntary work with a research team at a psychiatric hospital, the article I wrote may be published. It's a small step, but it is something. Sometimes what seems to be impossible ends up being possible years later)
It's difficult to help others while you are not feeling well enough, but you can take small steps that eventually lead you to what you want, even if right now you can't directly go for it.
(I lost a whole college year due to CPTSD, depression, psychosis, ... and haven't made a friend there yet..... but I get along with some professors, which is enough for my future...)
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Crazy, inside and aside
Meds: bye bye meds
CPTSD and some sort of depression and weird perceptions
"Outwardly: dumbly, I shamble about, a thing that could never have been known as human, a
thing whose shape is so alien a travesty that humanity becomes more obscene for the vague resemblance."
I have no mouth and I must scream -Harlan Ellison-