I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Tryingtobehappy5 I hope you'll be able to contact your T soon. I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. You've been given soem great advice in this thread. I'd suggest to follow it if you can. I hope you'll be able to contact your T soon. I agree with all the others that a program could really help you right now. I'm so sorry. It must be very hard for you right now. I hope you'll be able to get the help you need and deserve. If you feel like it's necessary, I'd suggest to go to the hospital if you can. I understand it's not an easy decision to make, but your safety must be the priority. You deserve to get better and to feel good. You deserve to live a good life just like everyone else. Please remember that things won't stay like this forever. They can and will get better. Please don't give up. You're a wonderful person. I'm sure you'll get through this. We're here for you if you need to talk about it. Stay strong, Tryingtobehappy5. Stay safe and take care of yourself. Remember that you're strong. You're a warrior. Try to hang on. Remember that you're not weak. You're just a person who's struggling right now. You just need some help. That's all. I hope you'll be able to talk to your doctors soon. Just try to do your best. That's all you can do after all. I'm sure you'll get through this somehow. Just give it your best shot. You're worth it. Your life is worth it. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this